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Nathan~ I wish I could love you the way you love me enough to change what I am. Troy~ I wish I could let you go so I can stop hurting.

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I know once you read this you all might be thinking that same thing, that I deserve better, I wish it was true, at least to me. I wish it was that easy. It's difficult to keep hold on sanity and your own mental health when in a serious relationship but with a cheating partner. And what's worse? because it's not once, not twice. But something that had started slowly then suddenly became a way of life, a whole part of him that I have to force myself to accept. And I wish I could be like him, I wish I could cheat and sleep with whomever I want to but is it that easy?? I'm drowning! Every single day I'm being pulled under inch by inch, it's suffocating. And it's not like I don't want to let go, I've thought of it once. Besides, it's not like we're married or anything but I can't, I don't want to stop loving him. I don't even know how to stop loving him. I can't let go because he's all I've ever known. I'm drowning and he's the weight pulling me under, the only reason why I'm still holding on and floating above water for as long as I can instead of just swimming to shore. He's the weight pulling me under but I can't stop holding on. I've given him Soo much of me that I think that once I let him go, they'll be nothing left of me to swim ashore. But then at least no matter where he goes and who he spends the night with at the end of everything it's me he comes back to, and that is enough. That I can hold on to.

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What You Said

Blurb:

Nathan~ I wish I could love you the way you love me enough to change what I am. Troy~ I wish I could let you go so I could stop hurting.

Excerpt:

I know once you read this you all might be thinking that same thing, that I deserve better, I wish it was true, at least to me. I wish it was that easy. It's difficult to keep hold on sanity and your own mental health when in a serious relationship but with a cheating partner. And what's worse? because it's not once, not twice. But something that had started slowly then suddenly became a way of life, a whole part of him that I have to force myself to accept. And I wish I could be like him, I wish I could cheat and sleep with whomever I want to but is it that easy?? I'm drowning! Every single day I'm being pulled under inch by inch, it's suffocating. And it's not like I don't want to let go, I've thought of it once. Besides, it's not like we're married or anything but I can't, I don't want to stop loving him. I don't even know how to stop loving him. I can't let go because he's all I've ever known. I'm drowning and he's the weight pulling me under, the only reason why I'm still holding on and floating above water for as long as I can instead of just swimming to shore. He's the weight pulling me under but I can't stop holding on. I've given him Soo much of me that I think that once I let him go, they'll be nothing left of me to swim ashore. But then at least no matter where he goes and who he spends the night with at the end of everything it's me he comes back to, and that is enough. That I can hold on to.

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